miss bee online: 2004

taking a break... and filling out a SURBAY

[Spell your first name backwards]
+++> eerised

[The story behind your email add]:
+++> beeanki? hehe. kristy used to say my name, DESIREE BIANKI MIJARES... i combined bianki w/ bee. ha. i'm freakin' cool!

[Where do you live?]:
+++> hillsboroville a.k.a intelville

[3 words that sum you up]
+++> i'm soooo cool!

[Jewelry you wear daily]
+++> ring

[What you are wearing now]:
+++> boxers and a shizzert (like i said, i'm soooo cool)

[Some of your favorite movies]:
+++> i love watching WHAT A GIRL WANTS over and over. of corz, the undying TRILOGY. no not star wars... LOTR

[Something you're looking forward to]:
+++> meeting that special someone. darn it all... Lord, help me to be patient! i'm getting antsy here! lol.

[The last thing you ate?]:
+++> was it a taco? from the taqueria place. ooo mi encanta. (senor flesher, i was paying attention!)

[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]:
+++> spiders, bugs, and reptiles

[Do you like candles]:
+++> hmmm, random, but sure. why not

[Do you believe in a thing called love]
+++> of course

[Do you believe in soul mates]:
+++> yes

[Do you believe in love at first sight]:
+++> do i believe in aliens?

[If you could have any animal for a pet]:
+++> a wittle doggy that never poos or pees.

[What's something you wish you could understand better?]:
+++> ok, what's the deal?!!! the filipino BROWN people have developed products to make their skin lighter, while the caucasians have tanning lotions? what has the world become!

[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]:
+++> lots of people

[Cried:]
+++> recently...

[Gotten sick:]
+++> last week

[Felt stupid:]
+++> um, yes? lol

[Hugged someone]:
+++> someone in church today, errr, yeah.

[Wanted to tell someone you loved them]:
+++> um, not recently

[Talked to an ex]:
+++> BLAH

[Talked to someone you have a crush on]:
+++> guys i'm crushin on are celebs... therefore i can't really talk to them just like that. lol. ow wait, i did meet jason perry, and i think i said to him, "b-i-a-n-c-a" when he asked me to spell my name out! woohoo.

[Fought with your parents]:
+++> don't recall. HA, i'm such a good girl

[Dreamed about someone you can't be with:
+++> jason perry. ROFL. ow and i had a dream about nelly. rofl. i found his earing and he thanked me for returning it, not stealing it like some crazed fan would do. i'm sooo cool!

[do you attend church/mosque/temple
+++> chuuuuch

[Do you like being around people:]
+++> shhuuuure. well, depends on my mood. lol. for the most part yes

[Who have you known the longest:]
+++> uh, the peeps from my family. i said peeps. man, i'm sooo cool!

[who do you argue the most with:]
+++> lol. i donno. i argue a lot.

[Who do you always get along with:]
+++> everyone, coz i'm soooo cool!

right place, right time...

i found myself really encouraged tonight, and it was much needed. there's a reason why things are what they are, and instead of me complaining about the life or situation i'm placed in, i'm gonna learn to embrace it and use it to glorify the Lord. proverbs 23:17,18

this one's gonna be quick...

1. loooooong day. muy muy tired. but it was a good day.
2. i love my new TFK (thousand foot krutch) album. their first album digitally remastered and re-released. woohoo
3. backpacking through europe? just an idea. i think i'm gonna do that when i actually have money, and a boyfriend so he can come w/ me and whoever else wants to come so i don't get abducted or nething like that
4. food places are scarce around psu. sux!
5. battle of the sexes next week!!! that means more chris graebe for me =)
6. still have hw =(
7. i miss summer!
8. better and more detailed update coming up. haha, i hope.

i feel like throwin up mah RAWKFIST!!!

... coz i'm done with Assignment #1. woohoo. school's crazy daisy. i only have three classes but they're fully loaded. as in jam pack talaga! sobra sobra. i feel like i'm the only one having a hard time. sheesh. i'm still getting over my cold/cough. i'm feeling a lot of painful sinus pressure. not fun. i'm happy i don't have to go to school tomorrow. although that means i have to work on...

1. Assignment #2
2. CS 250

ladeedah

i miss being able to go out, kickit, chill, hang out, do whatever and no worry about having something due in a couple of days. sigh. i want my vacation back =(

volcanic erruption

st. helens eh. i think it's pretty cool... since right now nothing really is in harms way. right? i wish i could see it. maybe i should become a geologist instead? ha. or if this computer science thing fails, i'll move into geography. my professor told me i should switch majors. i think he just liked the papers i wrote about weather analysis, and reports on the differences in temperatures and climate in the coastal areas, the willamete valley, and the cascades. woohoo. i don't even remember what i wrote, but apparently it sounded pretty good. haha. that was some good bs-ing. man, i think i did a lot of bs-ing in frosh inquiry. altho half the time i think i really was enjoying that class. i think it's because my teachers actually liked my papers =) haha. that was a major change from ib english in hs. all i got were Bs. neways.

i woke up this morning, and my whole body was sore. that would be from the "intense" punching and kicking yesterday during cardio kickboxing. what can i say, i was "inspired". rofl. jk. well, maybe not. ha. on top of that, i've been coughing my lungs out. well, not really my lungs but stuff out... yuck i know. but it's a good thing coz then my chest is not "congested" anymore. i'm just glad i don't have a fever or nething.

i have hw! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH =O

::cough cough::

yay they have stretch boots at payless now =) i need the high cut boots.

i act like a dork when i have to. i act like an adult when i have to. some people don't understand that about me. some simply don't get me, so they just give me the "you're an idiot" look. sometimes it gets to me, sometimes i just brush it off. sometimes i think i wear a "pick on me" sign. sometimes i bring it upon myself. sometimes... i donno why i brought this up. i think it's the fact that i'm delirious coz i'm sick >_< i thot i was better since my cold went away. however last night, my chest felt all heavy and my throat was freaking scratchy, and i was coughing like mad... that was the case today at school too. darn. i need to rest the next few days and get better. i don't want to get worse. besides, i have tons of hw already. can u believe it, it's the first week of school and i have tons of stuff due next week already. sigh. i'm looking fwd to going to thai orchid tomorrow w/ my parents for lunch... tom yum soup... it's a huge cure! haha. finally started kickboxing class today. whoo. what a day.

props to the financial aid office

i got thru in less than 5 minutes! woohoo. neways. that was random. it was better than waiting in line yesterday in neuberger hall. man ow man. i tried it, but it was so dayng hot in there, i gave up and decided to just call in my question. good thing i did coz i wudda been in line for more than 30 mins. and will receive a 1 min. answer to my dilemma. ha. now all i have to do is wait to get everything processed. i'm suppose to do homework and i'm sleepy. i just got back from target where i bought some school supplies... a pencil and a portfolio thing. i'd rather not bring any huge binders, so in order to minimize the weight of my bag and keep myself organized, i purchased a spiral portfolio with front view cover with 8 pockets. the source of papers will come mostly from my cs201 class, because i'll be printing out lecture slides from my professor's website. i'm glad i only have one book to purchase this term... for my pop culture class. well, enough yapping about school.

i had a really good sleep last night, and a really strange dream. hmmm. neways. back to work!

"sorry, i can't. i'm not a citizen yet"

i want to vote dayng it all... and i can't! 2 people came up to us today, asking us if we've registered...

the rest of the day wasn't so bad. went to mcdonald's for dinner. saw robby and jr. then went to cs201. it wasn't as dreadful like i expected to be. lol. well, it is the first day. and there's a ton of work waiting to be done.

tomorrow's a free day. i'm gonna spend it this way:

1. mailing my car bill - 3 mins.
2. call about my fafsa - ha! i'll be on hold for a while
3. buy some school supplies and other misc. stuff 30mins. - 1hour
4. get some reading and homework done - well, this should take a couple of hours.

sounds like a wonderful day eh? EH? EH?!!!

vacation is over =(

let's all have a moment of silence for the passing of summer. ::silence::

so so so. i'm here, back in my favorite place called SMITH CENTER with my laptop on my, uhm, lap. i've now used up 43 minutes of my 3 hour break. first day of school... wow, all i wanted to do was go home and sleep sleep sleep. it doesn't help that i'm still getting over my cold. there's thing pressure in my head and it's not fun. if i bend over, i feel like my face will crack open and something will come out. but i feel a lot better than i did sunday evening and yesterday. my throat ain't so scratchy anymore. NEWAYS. that was lovely. my first class was cs250 aka mutated calculus/math class. that was a snoozer. but i promised to myself that i'm going to be a good student this term, so i was paying attention for the most part. there's soooo much hw and studying to do in the class. the teacher said, on average, we should spend 4 hours to study for each class that we have (besides the actual class time, which is about 2 hours). so that means i have to spend 8 hours a week on that crap i mean stuff. after that i have cardio kickboxing. woohoo. we didn't really do nething today, the teacher just briefed us w/ what will happen, rules, attendance, etc. she also mentioned something about using punching bags. i'm EXCITED. i'd put some pictures of a couple of people i know for motivation ;P lol. jk jk jk. lunch. well, u know how it goes. finally, pop culture. all i remember is, it was dayng hot in that classroom. i couldn't really focus. i figured i could read the syllabus at my own spare time. and i couldn't help but notice my professor's tattoo. it's one of a skeleton and a sword on the bottom. very pirate-ish. haha, my professor's a pirate, and he's teaching us about popular culture?! LoL. how fun is that. he had mentioned stuff about politics, the election, and iraq. normally, i'd be interested, but dayng it was so freakin' hot in there. he let us out 15 minutes early... so now i'm here, checking my mail and friendster, dreaming about going home. HOME. i miss summer. i want it back already! i don't think i can handle any more work for this day. i have yet to face the ugly monster named cs201. YUCK. i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate ok u get the point.

man, i can feel it already. this term will be a lot of work. i still have to deal w/ my financial aid stuff. i just love being a college student >P forgive my sarcasm, i'm really tired and grumpy.

hihihihihihi

so yesterday, i went to chipotle to buy myself dinner. the dude that works there almost made me faint. he was so freakin' cute! i was tempted to eat there and just stare at him from a distance. then i'd look like a dork. pshhh. i left. i shall come back... chipotle, tanasbourne branch. sigh... he said, "you don't have to sign anything". hehehe. anyways... i spent most of last night uploading those dayng pics from the canada and seaside trips. antishift was acting up, displaying mysql errors on the screen. so i moved on to flickr.com like i said i was gonna do. which, worked out for the most part. but then i learned that they only display 100 pics at a time, and that you can only upload 10mb each month. sucky yes, but i like their programs... they make uploading pics really easy. why am i talking about picture uploading? this is sad.

here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/beesdigicam

finally!!!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/beesdigicam

random post...

When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever
[nelly, my place]

mayn. my left shoulder hurts like no other. ugh. i dint even do anything to it today to cause it to hurt like this. neways, antishift, the site that i post my pictures at is acting up. so... more delay. i'm thinking of transfering to flickr. hmmm. i might just do that =)

delayed

i am in the process of uploading the pics from the seaside trip and the pics from the canada trip. yes. i know. it took me awhile. hehe. i can't believe school starts next week.

>_<

now i know why it sux to be an only child.

BRB

::canada::

pix from beach trip... will be coming up when i get back >_-

it's raining...

i'm not used to rain anymore. for instance, on monday my parents and i went to someone's house when it started to rain, and when we left i took off my jacket to put over my head and shield myself from the evil rain. my mom started laughing at me and said, "why are you so scared of the rain?". my response, "it's gonna ruin my hair!".

yesterday, rented man on fire and watched it w/ steph. that movie was really good. the cinematography, the plot, the denzel... woohoo! even the subtitles were formatted in an interesting way. then i went to hg's apartment coz she made dinner and invited us over. while having dinner we watched the two back to back episodes of csi on spike tv. so that nite, the culmination of all that happened that day was a really strange dream. it was like a combination of man on fire and c.s.i. i can't really remember much since most of my dream was really blurry, but throughout the nite i felt like i was only half asleep, like i was still watching the movie and the show at the same time and they were all blended together. ugh! i need a nap. i woke up really tired >_<

you know what's a fun video game... mario party 4!!! come play w/ me, i'll beat u (haha, yeah right) while screaming my head off. ask madel and tito pj. LoL. i just realized how annoying i can get. i just get scared easily, what can i do? is there a cure? like on sunday when i was w/ kristy and erin at applebee's. ROFL. there was this guy at the table next to ours. he was talking so loud! he was telling this story, all of a sudden i hear him say BAM! really really loud and i jump bcoz i was startled, then kristy and erin bust out laughing. mayn, stupid guy!

randomness

i finally have my hands on husky boy by rex navarette. funny stuff! a must of all the filipinos out there. kuya joel lent it to me. so now i must make myself a copy.

i know most people think that these things are ugly. well, they're called "uggs" afterall. but i think they're cute =)

9-11

i remember being at school... watching everything on the news... first period. it's all a blur now.

Lord, be with the families that have lost loved ones. Continue to be with our nation. Continue to protect us, and guide our leaders. Give the president wisdom. Help us to be reminded that in the midst of something so evil, You are able to make good come out of the situation. Many people have realized that we need You Lord in our lives. Many realize that You are the source of comfort. Many have come back to You. There are many things that are confusing, and we don't know why You allowed certain things to happen, but I am confident that You are good, and You love us, and You have a plan for everything. You are our hope.

uh...

this new layout is best viewed in I.E. coz netscape sux! XP the pic was taken when i was on a ferry ride along vancouver, canada. the pic is of downtown vancouver.

we had young adult's bible study at the yutzie's. good fun man, and interesting discussion. after all that we karaoke'd and i completely butchered linkin park's one step closer. lol. then i had to go home coz it was already 10:35 and i still had to stop for gas. mayn i'm an expert at making it home on the dot! boo for curfew! not like i can do anything about it so. yeah.

i'm sleepy O_o

don't feel like it

so i don't write in here anymore. bleh. lately i've been hangin' out with my peeps, cleaning up my room and closets, reorganizing, having weird dreams about this random person (LoL), cleaning around the house, getting hooked on this one show, shopping by myself (i find it easier to do that, and i get more done that way), just... enjoying the last couple days of vacation.

i dare you to move

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be
[switchfoot]

boooooooo!!!

for the fact that summer's over XP

i'm bEck.

been to canada and back, yet again. that was what, the 3rd time i've been there this year? hehe. good stuff. can't get enough of that AUTHENTIC chinese food. i got tired of it tho eventually, so we went to the cactus club and had some steaks. i donno, there's nothing like good 'ol american food from america tho. lol. i did miss oregon believe it or not. i had fun tho but there's no place like home ^_^ i dint get much sleep last nite or should i say this morning. so i'm a tad bit tiwed.

bleh...

u know those days when you're feeling like blah, bleh, and uhh? that's what i'm having right now. i donno what it is. prolly coz i went to bed so late or should i say early this morning. not in a good mood >_< i think i need to get out of the house, but then again i don't wanna go anywhere. so i'm gonna sit here and listen to ewan mcgregor sing "come what may" with nicole kidman.

anyways, yesterday was my mommy's birthday. it was pretty fun. we went to benihana for lunch and ordered way too much hand rolls. it was sooooo good man. then for dinner we planned a surprise dinner for her. she though that it was just our family going out for dinner at olive garden. ha. well, it was us plus our extended "family". it was really fun, and i'm glad she was happy about it.

i feel like singing...

"i i i, i'm so in love with you. whatever you want to do, it's all right with meeeee. 'coz youuuuuu make me feel so brand neewwwww. iiii want to spend my life with youuuuuuuu... WHOO!" gotta love al green >_-

it's been awhile

so... my last update was thursday. and today is, tuesday! DAYNG HOMIE. anyways, it's been an interesting and fun past couple of days. i can't believe it's raining. well, it's oregon, however we've had so much sun these past months, and it's just strange to see and feel the rain again. makes me realize that i'm definetely not looking forward to the coming fall season. although i like the fact that i get to wear sweaters again and jackets. goodbye fliflops tho =(

friday: hmmm, i think that day was pretty slow. i was just at home until later that evening when i went to young adult's bible study. we talked about binding broken hearts, how the Lord works in different ways to bind our broken hearts. explored some situations in the bible pertaining to the subject. the God who was able to bring comfort to people from way back in the days, can still do the same for us today. awesome ain't it. after that, well, we all just at around and chilled chatted and talked.

saturday: erin woke me up. LoL. we went to kristy's apartment to go swimming, ow and cece came too =) what a cutie. kristy and i started watching matrix revolutions since i haven't watched it yet. it got confusing in some parts because it's been a long time since i saw the 2nd movie, so it took me awhile to connect everything together. we met up w/ kelley at the mall, went to linens and things, and life uniform. went to noodlin' for dinner. the chicken alfredo would've been better if the pasta was cooked all the way. LoL. went back to kristy's, went to the hang out area place thingy (i forgot what it was called) with diane that had a pool table and pingpong table. goshers, it was so frustrating coz kristy and i wanted to play pingpong but there was no dayng ball in sight! we looked everywhere, and nothing... so we resorted to a 500 piece puzzle since we're not good at pool. LoL. puzzles man. it's... puzzling. LoL.

sunday: church of course. the message was about "running the race". the passage was based on hebrews 12:1-3. i learned that i had to wake up and get out of my little "lala-land" that i've created for myself, to re-focus my eyes on Jesus... what He did on the cross for me, and continue on living this life of mine with purpose - living it for the Lord. it's so easy for me to get caught up with the "need to have fun while i'm young" mentality. i mean, it's not like the Lord doesn't want me to enjoy, get out there and have fun. i think it becomes a problem when all of my time and practically my whole life revolves around it and i completely abandon my relationship with the Lord. my walk with the Lord hasn't been perfect, but i guess part of what i learned this sunday was about enduring the race... of life. i have to persevere. keep running, sometimes i'll fall, but i just have to get up and keep on running... don't look back! persevere! keep at it! i need to ask the Lord what He wants me to do with my life, if He wants me to focus on a particular ministry, ask Him in what way He wants me to serve Him. i mean, it's awesome when you're able to find out what the Lord wants you to do and actually obey Him, coz then you'll be really good in whatever that is. finding your calling. wow. so many talented people out there, and when they look to God and ask Him to place them where He wants them to be, BAM! God uses them in such awesome ways, it blows your mind. i admire those people. i wanna be part of that crowd. i guess i must keep on persevering! sigh. olrite. so the rest of the day after church was fun. went to lunch w/ the parentals and madel, then she and i picked up the newlyweds from the airport. i got some cool stuff from their trip. a cowgirl hat (yeeha!) and this cool choker made out of shells. my cowgirl hat is soooo cool =) us peeps went to my house to watch bourne indentity. good movie!

monday: woke up so early to go to my dental appointment. fun stuff. i hung out w/ my parents the rest of the day. stayed home until about afternoonish, then i went to pj and hg's a-p-t coz we wanted to watch the dvd of their wedding. i don't like watching myself on tv >_< i was nervous to hear myself sing... ugh!

tuesday: finally, we get to today. went back to the dentist's. went home, did some chores, left and went apartment hopping (LOL) and just hung out with peoples. home. home sweet home. i need to clean this home sweet home tomorrow.

my mommy's bday is coming up. thursday. yay. mayn, i know so many people with birthday's this month. in my family alone, my tito butch, my gramma, my cousin des, and my mom - all in august. well, i must wrap this up.

starting over...

sigh of relief. who knows if i'll change it again in a couple of days. LoL.

today today today. hmmm, doing the usual household duties, and then later today i met up with melissa, who i haven't seen since we graduated two years ago (wow!) and steph to go see a movie. we watched princess diaries dos (the second time for me). went to tigard cinema and i happen to see mimi, my friend from high school, working at the concession stand. wow. it's so crazy to see her, coz i haven't really seen or talked to her since... senior year i think. we were in chemistry and multimedia together. man, good times, good times. so that was interesting. after all that, i was on my way home, but then i decided to go to nordstrom rack. yes to spend money yet again. but it came out of a gift certificate so it was cool. u know what sucked, i was walking around the shoe area, trying to search for freakin' jack purcells. the whole shoe! not the kind w/out a back thing. all they had were slip-ons (whatever u call 'em). i was getting frustrated. the only size that had the shoe shoe was a 5.5. so being the desperate person that i am, i squeeze my feet in a 5.5 shoe (when i usually wear a 7-7.5), it fit! yeah right! my foot was going numb after just a couple of steps trying to test it out. LoL. no luck G. i was so frustrated =( i left that place with a frown on my face. hey, that rhymes! but then i also left w/ a ck jean jacket... the biker style that i've always wanted. woohoo!!! then i finally went home after a couple of hours of just roaming around the store. my knees were getting wobbly because i was getting really hungry. so then i finally went home, had dinner, tweaked my site, cleaned my bathroom and the one downstairs, and now i'm hurrr.

i can't believe it's already thursday. the days are going by too fast. wow. i'm looking forward to the weekend. yay!

HIATUS

~~still not completely happy with this. trying to figure out stuff... may change layout yet again. hehe.~~

u know what i just realized... swimmers are freakin' hot! LoL.

honestly i'm scared to go back to school >_< if only my life could be a long summer vacation. HA. i think we would all like that. but the reality is, it can't happen that way. besides, i think i'd get tired of it sooner or later. so in my attempt to better my knowledge of comp. sci, i'm gonna crack some books open today. yeah. let's see how that goes. LoL. and i have this urge to clean out my closet. and i'm happy michael phelps won a gold! LoL. what a cutie. and the other south african guys were hot too. ROFL. kelley was right! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. she said something about the south african guys being really hot last nite on our way to the movies. it was followed by this hilarious statement, but i won't say what it is coz she dint want me to. i guess you had to be there. lol. so yesterday. hmmm, i did laundry, watched the olympics, met up w/ kristy and kelley at the apt, went out for dinner at sushi land, went to trader joe's but failed to find anything for us to buy and snack on during the movies (i think it was 'coz we were too full from the sushi), gave up and finally just went to tigard cinema, over 30 minutes early for the movie. lol. yes, we saw all of THE TWENTY. pretty sad. we watched PRINCESS DIARIES 2. i think i was laughing the hardest in the theater. i dint care, i thot it was hilarious. especially one random part where this white guy starts singing in either chinese or japanese. ROFL. kristy and i were laughing so loud, and i was trying not to pass out trying to hold my laughter in. it was really random. but anyways, i liked the movie. it was cute =) alrite, well, i better get to what i intend to do today.

it's semi done. yay! hehe. the links at the top don't work yet, except for the link to my xanga page. i know the picture page will be a lot of work, so i'm sorta putting that off. anyways. so far my day has been pretty easy going. my mom woke me up reminding me that i wanted to do some family stuff today, so she made me get up. well, it was already 10am anyway. i was startled though because i was having this really strange dream that felt so real. at one point i dreamt that i was dreaming about a weird movie that i had watched, and katie holmes was in the movie. weird. all of a sudden, the dream becomes reality, and then i become katie holmes (even weirder). i can't remember details... it's blurry now. another part of my dream was about this person, and i'd rather not talk about that. LoL. now i'm gonna get off my butt, leave my room, and go downstairs. ::POOF::

yay, i made yet another page ^_^ hehe. it's not complete yet. i still have to create more pages to go along w/ it. but i'm sorta relieved to have something up. it's crazy tho, i didn't even plan on sitting infront of my computer today and make another page. it just kinda happened. heh. so, here it is. well, i really want to continue working on this, however i must attend to other things that i must get done. ow and i have to go to young adults tonite for bible study. yup yup. it was so cool tho, just a couple of hours ago while i was making this page, the blue angels were practicing for the oregon air show this weekend. fun stuff coz i could see it right from my bed room window. hehe. one of the perks of living in hillsboro. anyways. here it is. and more shall come... soon.

Welcome to my new page...

this is just a test post ^_^