"...and yet it doesn't really work that way. so, i'll say this year... here i am Lord, i want what You want for me, and i'm scared out of my wits so hold me close and help me to trust in You." - me
- Desiree Mijares
- portland metro, or, United States
- i wish an orchestra & someone with a boombox would follow me around so that my life would continuously be accompanied by a soundtrack.
teeth extraction...
a post from my myspace blog 2/16/07
i've lost wisdom... wisdom teeth. all 4 baby, and i was awake throughout the whole process. man oh man. you should've seen the tray of tools and teeth after... it was bloody. i was too delirious to take a picture, i should've. i felt the top two come off and it was strange. the bottom two, especially the one on the right were being stubborn. they came out in pieces. it was crazy. i had to ask to add more numbing stuff on the right side 'coz i was starting to feel the pinch deep within my jaw. not as painful as i had anticipated, but i wouldn't be rushing to have it done again. i dint feel the bottom come off, they had to announce it to me, "it's off girlfriend!". lol. what got me through is Jesus, my ipod, the arm rest which i was gripping hard, and my dentist walking me through the process [props to ate melodee!!!]. i'm glad i wasn't put to sleep, just really numb. i dint wanna be out... although it would've been nice not to hear the ZZZZZZZ sound of some sort of tool, smelling the... i donno what and i don't wanna think about it, and hearing things like, "blade please". AAHHH. i kept turning up my ipod so i wouldn't here it, but it was impossible to shut out everything. it did help somewhat. the bite stopper was annoying though. my jaw was exhausted after. i got a goody bag though with chocolate pudding, apple sauce, gauze, etc. lol.
so today i feel like kanye west in the "through the wire" video. feel like someone punched my jaw several times. the only thing that is sorta painful is my tongue... it's annoying when i swallow, and eating soup is even hard. i'm swollen and i've been watching talk shows. i want it to be over soon. yes kristy, i do look like a chipmunk, and no you're not getting a picture ;p which reminds me, i have to go ice my cheeks now. fun!
i just wanna get it over with... this evil algorithms midterm and the teeth yanking... so i can finally sleep peacefully and watch a bollywood movie. i hope i won't be in so much pain so i can watch that hugh grant and drew barrymore movie. >_< my stomach feels funny. aaahhhh.
weird thing is i'm kinda looking forward to getting knocked out by the drugs when i get my wisdom teethsss pulled out. i donno, it's just one of those things where you have to experience it to know what it's like. hmm. my co-worker described it to me before i left work today, and it sounded... strange.
oh man i'm nervous. and i called the dental office a few hours ago to confirm my appointment. the receptionist said before i hung up, "do you have any questions?". i responded with, "um, i don't know. am i supposed to have questions?" lol. she said i shouldn't think/worry about it. why did i do that before a midter? now that's all i'm thinking about. evil teeth.
lines
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you
It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own
[look after you by the fray]
In this life, you're the one place I call home
In this life, you're the feeling I belong
In this life, you're the flower and the thorn
You're everything that's fair in love and war
In love and war
Head over heels
Head over heels
[head over heels (in this life) by switchfoot]
bad advice
just got done watching the hills. i know i know, guilty pleasure.
i got annoyed with a line that was said in this particular episodes that i just saw, something along the lines of "they don't know how he looks at me when it's just the two of us...". to put it into context, it was said by both heidi and lauren referring to the fact that people keep warning heidi about her current flame spencer, telling her to "watch out for him", because we'll, he's a dirt bag.
such bad advice... if a guy was treating me like a princess when it's just us but acts like a douche bag when he's out on his own without me, then the later definitely cancels out the former... i don't wanna be with someone who lives a double life.
love...
"If a person loves only one other person and is indifferent to the rest of his fellow men, his love is not love but a symbiotic attachment, or an enlarged egotism." (Art of Loving - 1957, by Erich Fromm)
"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightfowardingly, without complexeties or pride. So I love you because i know no other way than this..." - Pablo Neruda
lapse of intelligence
so i was walking from campus down to pioneer square, and on the way there i passed by a restaurant. i was curious whether they would have good food, since the place looked swanky. i was reading the name of the restaurant [which i have forgotten] and from the bottom of the sign i was reading to myself, and thinking "A Sian Cafe. Hmmm, i wonder what Sian food is? Wonder if it's any good." then i realized that it was ASIAN Cafe. NERK. good thing i didn't say it out loud.
the price you pay
i'm starting to really love banana republic. it doesn't help that the store is right on the way to the max stop. i now have to find a different route [to avoid it] on days when i decide to walk from campus to pioneer square. just a few days ago, i spent over a hundred dollars... however i did get 4 items. regularly you'd only get one item for a hundred dollars, so i'm proud that i was able to get really good deals on pretty nifty items. just last week though, i bought something regular priced. but i love it. i haven't worn it yet >_< stop me from buying clothes! note to self: you don't need anymore clothes. shoes maybe? noooo, stay away!
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